Secrets

I’m going to try doing something I’ve never done before, I’ll probably bungle it awfully, but it’ll make me feel better, like I’ve posted something worthwhile on this blog.

I was reading in John the other day, when I came on the passage about Jesus washing the disciples feet. I had to stop and think about it for a minute. We’ve all read that story, probably a million times. We all know that it was a beautiful and amazing act. But have you ever thought of yourself in that place? I don’t know about you but I have secrets. Filthy secrets, ugly bits of me which I try to hide from sunlight. Things I try hard to hide from God. I’m a Christian, I follow God and it is my aim to give him glory, but I can’t even give him me.

Jesus washed the disciples feet, the smelliest worst place, he made clean. He washed them himself, with a towel around his waist he got on his knees and washed these men’s feet. We’re talking about the God of the universe. Thought about the universe lately? Well, do now. Huge, I’m not even going to go into describing it because I can’t. God is King of that easily. He’s outside of it, it’s his creation, his handiwork. And he washed these men’s feet.

God is not going to be suprised by your ugliness, you’re actually alot worse than you’ll probably ever see,  but that only means that his grace is bigger than you’ll ever see. And let me tell you, if you keep it from him, try to hide it, cover it up, it will rot and infect everything else. You can’t give God part of you, it’s all or nothing. And you will end up a quivering little mass of tears if you try to give him everything… except that little piece that’s too nasty, or too fun, or too much a part of you. God knows it’s there, he sees it no matter if  you want to hide it or not.

I don’t know if you are or not, but I’m serious about wanting to follow God, because if I’m not then my life is wasted. That means making an effort. Yes it is completely grace, but it’s not a free ride to heaven after you pray once. It’s a life lived completely differently than it used to be. I’m working on this now, changing my whole life, giving him my thoughts as I fall asleep as well as my actions around my friends. Let me tell you, actions are alot easier to control.

Let him wash you, he wants to, in fact you cannot be his until he has. CANNOT. That’s simple, it’s in the Bible, it’s true. God has to have everything or nothing. If you’re luke-warm you get spit out. I don’t want to be spit out, and I don’t want to call to him after the end and hear him say “I never knew you.” It’s scary, and it’s very real. Think about it.

~Lolly